Tears

Since I'm about to start working full time we decided to get Jack started with going to day care every day. We're using an FCC provider who we love! Ms. Liliane is sooo great! We've been taking him for 2 hours randomly before, not every day. Since I'm not working full time just yet we're taking Jack from 8am-2:30pm everyday. He needs to get used to eating and sleeping there. The times before it's only been when he's wide awake, fed and ready to play, otherwise known as his HAPPY mood. :-) hahaha. So last night Tom and I were talking about everything new that's going on and how I feel like I'm stirring everything up. Jack had a schedule, we had a system and know it's all getting rearranged. I'm all about change and I'm very excited to work but I realized last night how much I love being a mom! I'm having a little bit of a hard time (understatement) coming to terms that I won't be with Jack everyday all day long. I know he's going to be safe and well taken care of and I really do believe that day care is great for social development but it all breaks my heart. Today I dropped Jack off to Ms. Liliane's around 8am. He was all excited to see her house and knock on the door. As soon as she opened the door he got this super sad look on his face and I broke. I'm crying and then he started crying and grabbing on to me for dear life. (Now I know this is normal. Tom's mom told us that all of her boys, Tom included, had to be peeled off of her for the first month of going to day care) It's just the saddest thing. So I'm a big believer in saying good bye and not sneaking away so I give my screaming tear filled child a kiss and I head towards the door and they head towards the kitchen for breakfast. The funny thing here is that once Jack saw that he was heading towards the kitchen for some food, he calmed right down and stopped crying. Me on the other hand....I cried until I was half way home. I think I shed more tears than he did. Pathetic, right?? So now I'm sitting here trying to make myself be productive and not stare at the clock waiting for 2:30 to come so I can go pick him up. I miss my crazy kiddo!!! I guess I need to start this job soon because I need to be busy!